Disappointed

So I asked DH if he was feelin’ up to some lovin’ tonight. I didn’t think that he would, because of his knee and all. I sent him a text and said it was fine if we started tomorrow night, seeing as how he cancelled his weekly Warhammer game with the guys just in case his knee wasn’t feeling better and he’d be all mine. He sent back:
Nope, game’s back on.
Sigh.
I’m really disappointed. We’re not going to get BD in tonight, and we might not get it in tomorrow. I guess that just leaves Thursday. And we can give it a shot on Saturday night after I get home from contest, I suppose. Oh well. These are the types of things I need to stop stressing out so much about.

I just get so sad at the thought of wasting yet another month of trying. I’m so tired of trying. I guess we’ll just see what happens.

Getting Closer

I made my trip to the bathroom early today…. I couldn’t hold my pee anymore. I try to hold off on testing on my OPK until after lunch, as my LH surge is more likely to show up then. Well, after POAS I wiped, and there I saw something beautiful:

EWCM.
A LOT OF IT.

Now, my OPK was negative but still. THERE WAS A LOT OF EWCM! I don’t know if it’s the Origin vitamins finally kicking in or what, but I NEVER see EWCM. I’m very pleased with this. I’m hoping that my O comes early this month.. Like, tomorrow or Thursday early. I’m expecting to O sometime between Friday-Sunday which is THE most inconvenient time for O EVER.

My chorus is going to regional competition this weekend. It’s here in town but I will be at our hotel all day Friday, overnight Friday, and all day Saturday. Not the best for BD!!! I’m going to try and get a BD in tomorrow, and one Friday morning… Or maybe Thursday, and one Saturday night when I come home. It’s going to be tricky, but we’re gonna try.. I have that PreSeed that I bought and haven’t used it yet. I had a very vivid sex dream last night, and in it we used the PreSeed and I remember it was really awesome, heh. I’m looking forward to trying it.

Another snag: Josh twisted his bad knee yesterday and is laid up at home. I had wanted to try and BD tonight but that’s probably going to be a no-go.. I feel OK with it, since my OPK was negative but tomorrow I’d really like to try and get a good session in.

So I’m just waitin on the eggie.. With plenty of EWCM :)