Hole-y Brain, Batman

Sooo, we all know that pregnant women are infamous for their “pregnancy brains”, or as I liked to call it “Pregnesia” (I stole that term from a friend). Apparently, Pregnesia is a real thing that’s totally medically backed up. It has something to do with the baby being like a zombie, and eating your brain cells. Actually I think it’s something that has to do with the placenta, or blood, or whatever. I like to think it’s because of zombie babies.

I would seriously do the dumbest shit when I was pregnant. I was constantly forgetting things, leaving crap in odd places and losing stuff completely. Once, I lost a tube of toothpaste. True story. Now, I thought that once the zombie that was taking up residence in my womb was evicted, my brain would be mine again and I’d go back to my normal, sharp-as-a-tack self.

Much to my dismay, that is not the case. I feel like my brain is full of holes. Not even kidding, I forget things as soon as I hear them most of the time. At work, when someone is talking to me it’s like my brain just checks out and I struggle to remember what someone told me literally just seconds before. When I take phone calls, I have begun writing down who I am talking with because I will forget who I am talking to by the end of the conversation. Once I answered the phone and it was for a coworker. I asked who was calling, they told me, and I put them on hold. I walked back to the girl’s office to tell her who it was and in the 5 seconds it took me to walk from my desk to hers, I frigging forgot who was on the phone. I had to go back and ask. Talk about embarrassing.

I really don’t understand why this has happened to me. I used to be able to multitask and concentrate on SEVERAL things at once and now I have to put much more effort into things like that. I don’t know if I have a listening problem or what, but it’s frustrating. I’m not exaggerating when I say I have to write all sorts of things down now because things will enter my brain, and make a hasty exit before I even know what’s happening.

Do you other moms have this problem? Or am I the only one with a Swiss Cheese brain??

Love Is All You Need

Nellie and mommy have the same favorite band.

(Dear Prudence) won’t you come out to play?

All You Need….

Is Love.

There’s nothing you can do that can’t be done.
Nothing you can sing that can’t be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.
It’s easy.

Nothing you can make that can’t be made.
No one you can save that can’t be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.
It’s easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

Nothing you can know that isn’t known.
Nothing you can see that isn’t shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be.
It’s easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love (All together, now!)
All you need is love. (Everybody!)
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) Yesterday (love is all you need)
(love is all you need) (love is all you need)

Body After Baby Project: Week 2

Alrighty, so, it’s week 2 and I’ve got to confess: I’ve been a huge exercise failure this week. Nutrition-wise I’ve been very good but exercise.. Well. I’m doing what I feel I can do. It’s difficult, only having one car and a limited amount of days in which I can go to the gym. Also, it’s about 900 degrees outside here so walking outside is a no-go, because I have to take my daughter with me and it’s too hot for her.

I do have an at-home DVD I can do, but I’ve been so tired when I got home from work.. Blah blah, excuses. I got in a REALLY good workout Wednesday at the gym so that’s good. I will say also, I walked quite a bit around the mall on Thursday and had a good 30-45 minutes of pretty heavy… errr.. “physical exertion” with my husband on Friday, if you catch my drift. Saturday and Sunday I walked around the mall again for about an hour each time, so that’s something at least. Sunday night I was going to do my 30 Day Shred but Nellie kept waking up right as I was about to start, so I just ended up doing some crunches.

Normally I hit the gym on Sundays but didn’t make it, so I have no idea how much I weigh right now. But here are my pics:

Start Weight: 198 lbs
Current Weight: ??
Start Waist: 41″
Current Waist: 41″
Goal: 188 lbs by 8/25/10

I’m feeling a little discouraged, because I am not seeing any progress yet. I may have lost a few pounds but I don’t really know, because I haven’t been on a scale yet this week. All I know is that I’m doing what I can do right now.. I need to step up the exercise, but it is very difficult for me right now because I am limited as to when/where I can work out.

Healthy Snack Ideas

Some snacks I’ve enjoyed this week:

  • Grapes
  • Carrots and celery with hummus
  • Low-cal, whole grain wheat wrap with hummus spread & cucumbers
  • 1 piece whole grain bread w/ 1 tbsp peanut butter
  • 2-3 Twizzlers

Anyone got any healthy and tasty snack ideas?

So.. How ’bout you, mamas? How’d you do this week? Link up your week 2 BAB posts below:

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Frisky Friday (on a Saturday) – Impulse 3 Way Micro


For my new readers, here’s the deal with Frisky Friday. On the last Friday of every month, I post a review for adult toys or an adult-oriented product. I usually post a disclaimer that if this sort of thing makes you uncomfortable, I advise you to just skip past this post. I try not to be explicit while still being descriptive, but if the nature of this post makes you feel wonky feel free to skip. You can always tell it’s a Frisky Friday post by the title, and by the image above.


Okay. Kiddies away from the computer? Those sexually squeamish left the room? Fantastic.

This month I reviewed the Impulse 3-Way Micro Arouser. Yes, much to my husband’s dismay, this was another C-Ring.

If you didn’t read about the last (failed) attempt at a C-Ring, check out my first Frisky Friday post.

First, the technical jargon about the Impulse:


Material: TPR Silicone
Texture: Nubbed
Safety features: Phthalates free / Hypo-allergenic / Latex free


Color: Purple
C-Ring style: Stretchy ring
Max stretched diam.: 5″
Unstretched diameter: 3/4″
Weight: 0.3 lb


Special features: Anal stimulator
Powered By: Aa-3
Control type: Control pack

Okay! So, the review.

I got off work early yesterday and Josh and I wanted to swing by the house and change before picking up Nellie and going out for a walk. We checked the mail and I discovered that a new package had arrived. I tore into it and found it was for my Frisky Friday review! I looked at him and said, “Wanna try it out?”

We took advantage of the fact that we could actually take our time and not rush in between Nellie’s naps. I loaded the Impulse with batteries and we scurried off to the bedroom.
Now, this C-Ring is stretchy but it still gets a thumbs-down from Josh. I’m pretty sure any C-Ring will; he really doesn’t like the way they feel and says they’re all too tight. At least this one was VERY stretchy, so it has that going for it. I think as far as C-Rings go, it’s good material because it’s really soft and stretchy.

It comes with a teensy little bullet that you slip into a little.. Er, pocket, I guess. The other side has an anal stimulator (that we did not partake in) that is shaped like a tiny penis! I laughed my ass off when I saw that.

So I slipped it around him and we got to work. The Impulse has a hand-held controller, and 6 different speeds/vibrations:

1. escalate
2. surge
3. pulsate
4. high vibe
5. medium vibe
6. low vibe

We experimented with all of the settings before I settled on the low vibe. I’ve gotta say; the pulsate and surge are like little random spurts, and it felt like some tiny Sex Fairy was down there and punching me in the clit. I seriously bursted out laughing, while on top of my husband, because I felt like I was getting sucker-punched on my love button (yes, I said love button. Deal.). After the fit of giggles subsided, we were actually able to get into a groove and enjoy the Impulse. At one point I was grinding on him and all of a sudden, the buzzing sensation left the important area of my body and felt like it was running away. Josh looked up at me and said, “Er.. What’s happening?” I looked down and the bullet had wiggled its’ way out of the Impulse’s pocket and was traveling down Josh’s hip. Cue another fit of laughter while we adjusted the bullet and got back to work.

It’s always been hard for me to climax while having intercourse. Normally, Josh “takes care of me” beforehand, or I do it myself while he watches. But I have been on a mission to find a toy that makes it so I can climax DURING intercourse. Apparently I have a picky clitoris with a sensitive palate, because I have yet to be successful. Getting me to climax during intercourse is like disarming a bomb. I have to get the positioning just right, time it correctly, grind a certain way.. Needless to say, despite the fact that I didn’t go to the gym last night, I still feel like I got a workout. Literally, my arms, hips, and legs are sore today.

We worked toward me climaxing for… Quite a while. Everything felt amazing, I just couldn’t get past that “wall” to reach O-Town. After probably 30-45 minutes of working at it, we decided it was time to just finish in other ways. I climbed off and took care of my business and then we got back to frolicking so Josh could take care of his.

Overall, I really enjoyed this toy. I think that with some practice, it will work for us if I can convince Josh to put the C-Ring on again. I honestly think that the low setting on the bullet may even be a little to hard/intense for me. I enjoyed the “escalate” setting a lot. We will definitely be using this one again and adding it to our collection!

I was given the opportunity to review this product because of my participation in EdenFantasys‘ review program. I received no monetary compensation and was given this product for review purposes. The opinions expressed in this post are entirely honest and my own.

Frisky Friday Fail, True Blood Fail, Eyeball Fail

So… This month’s Frisky Friday is going to be a Frisky Saturday (doesn’t quite have the same ring to it, does it?) because I was lazy and didn’t order my item until late and didn’t receive it today. But don’t worry, it’s been thoroughly tested and I’m going to try and get the post up tomorrow.

I think I need to get my eyes checked, because I’ve been getting headaches from watching TV and being on the computer. EYE FAIL.
Also, I finally started the 2nd season of True Blood because I got the first disc in on Netflix. I’m a big fan of the books, so within the first twenty seconds of the opening episode, I was snarling at my TV: “That’s not how it happened!!” Then I found myself scowling, “The REAL Sookie wouldn’t spend time barrel-curling her hair like that!” then I was all, “BILL’S ACCENT IS SO TERRIBLE.”
And then I was like, “….Eric’s pretty hot though.”

And he is. Not as hot as Book Eric, but still hot nonetheless.

I’m still Team Quinn, though. I still think Sookie screwed the pooch on that one.
Actually, the pooch is one of the only ones Sookie HASN’T screwed yet.
HA HA! Get it? Because, you know, of Sam? I’m HI-LARIOUS.

Oh, hell, I just remembered another fail. I was going to go to the gym tonight but ended up spending time with the family instead. Bah. Oh well…. In the words of everyone’s favorite fiery Southern Belle: “Tomorrow is another day.”

The Truth? I Still Miss You.

Part of me thought that when I had a baby, the pain of my miscarriage would go away. With time, the pain of my miscarriage has lessened, for sure… But it never really goes away. The sadness is always there, hiding in the back of my mind. I’m reminded of Green Bean at the most random times; at work, when I see a long-forgotten calendar on the wall, frozen on December of 2007. I was filing some things away the other day, looked up, and saw it. I stopped in my tracks and just stared at the 22nd. The night we lost our Green Bean. I remembered that night with sadness in my heart. Yes, I have my living baby but that night.. I will never forget the pain of that night. Every detail is etched in my memory.

Any time I see a picture of an early ultrasound, I remember Nellie’s first ultrasound but I also remember the one time we saw Green Bean, and his/her heartbeat. I think about the night I found out I was pregnant with GB all the time. I remember that night with a sad smile.

I wonder a lot.
I wonder what GB would look like. It blows my mind that if things had gone differently, GB would be 22 months old. I never even knew if GB was a boy or a girl (though I felt like it was a boy). Would he have curls? Would they be blondish like daddy’s hair (when he doesn’t shave it), or dark like mine? What sort of things would he like to do? When I see a child that is around where GB should be, these thoughts always pop into my head. Always.

And then I think.. If I hadn’t lost GB, Nellie probably would not be here. I wouldn’t have this sweet, precious child in my arms. Everything happens for a reason..

But I still miss my first babe. No matter how many babies I go on to have, there will never be another Green Bean. There is a special, sacred, untouchable place in my heart for that first little one, whose name I never knew and whose face I never saw.

Your song. This will always be your song.



Body After Baby Project: The Beginning!

Welcome to my first OFFICIAL Body After Baby Post!

What is the Body After Baby Project?

Click here to read all about BAB, and to find out who is participating so you can swing by their blogs and support them!

Okay. So. I’ve been working out for a week, but this is my official ‘start’.
Workouts I’ve Done This Week

  • Treadmill walking/power walking
  • Elliptical


  • Level 1 of the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.
    OH. MY. GOD. This program IS SO HARD RIGHT NOW. The day after my first time I thought my thighs were going to spontaneously burst into flames because they burned so badly. The second time was worse. But, I didn’t feel as awful the day AFTER day 2. This is a good workout on the days that I can’t make it to the gym.

Nutritionally, I’ve done GREAT this week. I’ve been using the SparkPeople tracker and have been either under, or within my caloric goal range. YES!!!

So.. Here are my weekly pics.

Weight: 198 lbs
Waist size: 41″
Goal #1: Reach 188 lbs by 8/25/2010
Reward: Pedicure!

BAB Participants

Make sure to add the URL of your BAB post to the link-up below so everyone participating can swing by and cheer you on!

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Dinner last night was slow-cooker salsa chicken courtesy of a Spark recipe. It was amazingly delicious and low fat/calorie but you would NEVER guess that it was. If you want the recipe, e-mail me (see the Contact Me button on my blog’s menu bar) and I’ll send it to you!

Have a great week mamas!!!

Happy Father’s Day

To the man that I married almost five years ago.
To my best friend in the world.
To the one that I can’t wait to grow old and crotchety with.

To the man that I never thought I could love more than I already did…

Until he became a daddy.

Happy Father’s Day, Joshua.

Seeing you with her takes my breath away.