A New Chapter

I have a secret to share.

One that’s really scary and a little embarrassing for me to put out there where anyone who lay eyes on my blog can see. For over ten years, I’ve carried this little secret around in my pocket, only giving those I’ve known for a while and who I really trust a peek. My secret?

I did not graduate from high school.
And I have never gotten my GED.

Whew!

I tend not to divulge that information until I’ve known someone for a while because I’d like for people to get to know me without judgment. Let’s face it – people tend to view high school dropouts a certain way. I have to admit, I glean a bit of satisfaction when I finally do tell someone and see the surprised look on their face. I’m an intelligent woman. I don’t fit into the idea a lot of people have in their heads about what a high school dropout looks like. I’ve done well for myself in life so far without even so much of a high school degree. Until recently, not having a diploma wasn’t an issue for me; I got by with my intelligence, my ability to learn quickly, and my technology skills.

Something inside me changed recently and I’m not entirely sure what it was. I think that it was, in part, motivated by my mother’s death. My mother obtained a Bachelor’s degree in psychology when she was in her early forties, but never did anything with it. She was one of the most intelligent people I’ve ever met in my life, but her mental illness and life choices spiralled out of control so quickly she never reached her potential. She was capable of so much more, and one day I realized…

So am I.

I realized that I didn’t want to look back on my life when I am old and regret never pursuing a higher education. There is something inside of me that I haven’t tapped into yet. I don’t know what it is, but something awoke inside of me yearning for more. Suddenly, I found myself desiring a diploma. I want my daughter to look at me one day and see that I accomplished something that wasn’t necessarily easy. I want to be an inspiration to her. I also don’t want to be defined as someone who didn’t finish high school – I’d rather be seen as someone who succeeded despite the choices she made early in her life.

So I’ve begun the process in getting my GED. I’ve taken my assessment test and scored high enough to follow what’s called the “Fast Track” process. I will attend one “refresher” course, then take the official practice test and if I pass that, I will go on to taking the official GED test.

If all goes well, with a little studying and luck, I could have my GED by the end of this month. From there? I’m planning on enrolling in college. I don’t know what I’m going to do yet – I am drawn to something having to do with writing or editing – but I’m just not sure. I may not even end up pursuing a college degree. I may just take some courses to hone my writing skills and keep my mind sharp. Who knows? I just know that I’m excited. I can’t wait to see where this takes me. I have gotten amazing support from my husband, my family, my friends, and my coworkers and bosses – which means the world to me. More than they all know.

Wish me luck, friends.

college graduates throwing caps into the air

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Comments

  1. I am so proud of you! *jumping up and down*
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  2. Yay can’t wait to see you cross the finish line. Good luck
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  3. Good for you! I’ve got 1/3 left to go before I get my bachelors degree and I keep saying nows the time to finally finish. There are so many online options these days, once the kids get back to school, I’ve got my eye on a couple programs. We could complain about homework together!

  4. Michelle Leann Ward says:

    So happy for you! YOU GO GIRL!

  5. Shemaiah says:

    That’s fantastic!! :)

  6. You can do it, no problem! You are actually the second person I know who in recent weeks revealed that they didn’t graduate high school…and both of you are very smart, intelligent people!
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  7. The coolest thing is that you can study whatever you want, with the benefit of some life experiences to help you choose. I applaud your choice to pursue education, but I also wouldn't let anyone make me feel more or less successful based on the paper you had earned. You define your own success and I think you are supremely successful. Smart, funny, educated (perhaps not formally but always learning), and you have a great family! Having said all of that – you have a gift for writing, so if that's your eventual choice, then we'll all be better for it. Music might be an option to? You seem pretty gifted there as well.

  8. Such wonderful and big life news! Congratulations, and I’m proud of your decision!
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  9. Good for you & good luck!
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  10. Congrats! School is no small feat, especially higher education. As a veteran of several programs, I definitely recommend online courses. Hundreds of major universities now have degrees than you can pursue entirely online. Good luck! (FWIW, I’m currently enrolled at National, and they’re awesome.)
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  11. YOU GO GIRL! MY DREAM IS TO SOMEDAY GO TO COLLEGE, I AM CONFIDENT THAT SOME DAY I WILL, IT MAY BE WHEN THE KIDS ARE GROWN BUT I WILL SOMEDAY.

  12. Way to go! I hope you nail the GED test and then keep pressing forward! Will you do something local or something online?

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