Nipped

Whenever someone asks me, “So when are you going to have another one” (and they mean a baby and not like, a Snickers bar. Because my answer to “when are you going to have another Snickers bar” would be “do you have a Snickers bar? If so, right now.”), my response is generally to:

  • Stare blankly, feeling a mixture of terror at the question and terror wondering if they’re fucking crazy and if I should run.
  • Stumble over my words and try and find a polite way to say “it’s none of your business what I do with my vagina and uterus”
  • Laugh hysterically
  • Smile sweetly and say “we’re enjoying our first too much to make her a sister!”

Okay, that last one almost never happens. More often than not, it’s a combination of staring blankly in terror and laughing hysterically. The fact of the matter is, motherhood is hard (duh) and I’m just now starting to feel rested again. Eventually, yes, I do want a 2nd and maybe a 3rd but up until recently my brain couldn’t handle the thought of another child.

Then the other night at chorus, I held my friend’s 7 month old and as I was looking down at her gummy smile and watching her kick those chunky little legs, I was suddenly able to contemplate my future as a mom of 2. It’s amazing how your mind has the power to (almost) completely wipe out the memories and feelings of sleep deprivation, exhaustion, and frustration. I suppose that’s what perpetuates our species and keeps us wanting to have more children.

I’m not saying that I have full-blown Baby Fever yet, but I think that the Baby Bug has maybe given me a little nip. And if that is in fact the case, it looks like it might be time to start getting serious about tackling the things on my Baby #2 Bucket List. I haven’t lost any weight and we’re no closer to getting a 2nd car really.. But Josh’s job has the potential for us socking away money in savings rapidly. So there’s something we should be able to chip away at. I also know that I do not want to get pregnant before BlogHer ’11 (SQUEEEXCITEMENTZOMGTHREEMONTHSAWAY) so there’s that.

I also confess, I worry about having a second one. Can we afford it? Is it crazy? How could I possibly love another baby the way I love my first? I know that people say your heart makes room and I also know that’s a common worry of moms of 1 when it comes to having a 2nd.

So, moms of more than 1 kid.. How did you know that you were ready? Were you worried about loving your 2nd as much as your 1st? How far apart are your children?

Baby #2 Bucket List

It’s no secret that we want more than one child. We’re not in any hurry, and I’ve decided to make a list of things that must happen and a list of things that I’d like to happen before we stop preventing and make Nellie a big sister!

Must Happen Before #2

  • 2nd Car: This is a deal-breaker. No 2nd car, no 2nd baby. Life is insane enough as it is with just one child and one car!
  • Achieve Pre-Pregnancy Weight: This means I have about 35 pounds to lose. Ugh.
  • Have At Least $3,000 In Savings: For maternity leave.

Would Like to Happen Before #2:

  • Get Down to 150 Pounds: I like being at this weight, it looks and feels good on me. But honestly, right now I’m focusing on getting down to  pre-pregnancy weight.
  • Have $5,000 In Savings: Self-explanatory.
  • Be In A House: Two babes in a 2 bedroom apartment would be awfully crowded. Doable, but crowded.

Fun Stuff:

  • Go to BlogHer: This is already in the works. I’m planning on attending in August of 2011 in San Diego!
  • Go to Six Flags By Ourselves: Josh and I used to go several times a year (we’re two hours away from a Six Flags). We haven’t been in almost three years!
  • Take At Least a Small Honeymoon: We never got a honeymoon and even if it’s just a weekend in Gatlinburg, I’d love to have some time alone with Josh!
  • Compete on the Sweet Adelines International Stage: A girl can dream, can’t she?

I’ve pasted this post into a page on my blog, so I can kind of look at it any time and reflect and plan for what needs to happen, or add to it as needed. I’m just now getting to the stage where I can wrap my brain around, and even feel excited about baby #2… Before, when someone would ask me, “When is Nellie going to become a big sister?” I’d feel like vomiting… Now I just kind of feel like smiling.

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