Sneaking Into the 2WW

I’m fairly confident that I have ovulated. I got a + OPK on Wednesday, and theoretically you are supposed to ovulate between 24-36 hours after getting a +. DH and I have BD’ed our little butts off for the past week and a half. I think I’m going to try and get one more session out of him tonight for safety’s sake.

I’m trying really, really hard not to be obsessive over all of this. Those of you who read my blog that are TTC, or have dealt with the TTC madness will know that once you turn that fertility awareness on in your brain, it is nearly impossible to turn it off. I can say, “we’re being relaxed about this” until I am blue in the face but the bottom line is this: I know my body now, I know my cycle. I know my fertility signs, I know when my period is supposed to be due, and I can’t just “unknow” those things. The things that I have been successful in toning down on are the fact that I no longer check my CP every few hours (I’m fairly certain I gave myself a UTI a few months ago doing that), I don’t temp, and I haven’t completely changed my behavior and lifestyle just because we are TTC. I drink one cup of caffeinated coffee in the mornings, which I wasn’t doing a few months ago. Sometimes I will sip on a soda, but I usually don’t finish one. If I am not in the 2WW and feel like having a beer, I will have a beer. Sometimes, I will have a beer even if I am in the 2ww but I don’t usually have more than one.

There are plenty of women out there who get pregnant when they are drinking, intaking caffeine, etc. The first time I got pregnant I didn’t stop drinking coffee until after I found out I was pregnant. I know that having a cup of coffee a day for the week before I knew I was pregnant didn’t cause me to lose my baby. Nothing could have prevented me from losing my baby, that little one was just not ready for this world yet.

While I was getting ready for work this morning standing at the bathroom sink brushing my teeth (topless), DH came in, put his hand on my shoulder and leaned down to kiss my belly. I smiled, and looked at him and said “What was that for?” and he looked at me and said, “You know what that was for.” He wants a baby just as badly as I do. I think that we are both feeling hopeful this month, like maybe it’s finally going to be our turn. One of the good things about being on our 8th cycle of trying is that I feel like the odds are slightly more in our favor with each passing month. We are obviously able to get pregnant; we did it the last time on our first try. I geniunely believe that the main issue that we’ve come across in conceiving again is that my ovulation has been irregular, and we simply have not had enough sex. We have definitely remedied THAT this cycle, because we’ve been BDing a lot. And it’s actually been really nice; I have noticed that the more we do it, the more I want to do it whether we “need” to or not. It’s almost like we were 5 years ago when we first got together.

A few weeks ago, DH asked me if I would mind changing our first born boy name. We had decided on Levi Alexander for our first boy but he requested it to be changed to Julius (Jude) Arlen. The second name is a family name, and he stated that he wanted to use it just in case we only end up with one boy. I agreed, though I was a little disappointed. I prefer the name Levi Alexander over the other, but it’ll be OK. Hopefully we will have two boys and will be able to use them both.

Today is Friday, and I’m very happy about that! I suppose I’m going to wrap this up and try and feign some semblance of productivity. I have the bad habit of being very, very lazy on Fridays.

Oh, it’s ON!

I got a + on my OPK today!!!!

WOOT WOOOOOOOT! My eggies are in full working order. I figured I’d get a + today. It was nearly + yesterday but not quite there. Then, last night, I began feeling full and uncomfortable with some discomfort specifically on the left side. O pains, O pains! I read online somewhere that this pain and discomfort doesn’t usually signify that you are ovulating RIGHT THEN AND THERE, but rather is an indication of ovulation about to occur.

I feel pretty well-covered. DH and I BD’ed yesterday morning, and again this morning. I’m planning on BDing again tomorrow night, just to be on the safe side. I figure we’re pretty well covered.

It’s not up to us, anyway. We can only do so much.. I can only hope that this is our lucky month! Maybe I should just start wearing four leaf clovers all over the place. 😉

Stupid OPKs…

So I’m using OPKs again to find out when I’m ovulating, not only to try and catch the egg but because of the Origin vitamins.
I forgot what a pain in the ASS OPKs are. Why? Because you’re not supposed to use FMU like a pregnancy test, you are supposed to test around midday. Not a big deal, right? Wrong. You also are supposed to get urine as concentrated as possible, which means, NO PEEING FOR THREE TO FOUR HOURS.
It’s murder, I tell you. In the mornings, I generally eat, drink a cup of coffee, and go to the bathroom by 8:30, so I can test around 11:30-12:30. Two days ago, my bladder was fine with this. I had no problems waiting until then. Today, however, I’m already having to go. I went to the restroom around.. Oh, I dunno, 8:45 A.M. It’s 9:45 A.M. right now and my bladder’s like, “HEY BITCH. IT’S TIME TO GO.” and I’m all like “NO, BLADDER. NO.” and it’s sitting here screaming at me, doing jumping jacks or some shit. Gyah!
Ugh. The things I do to have a baby….

Something’s fishy..


I just got a message from my cousin on Facebook. I’m feeling a bit silly at the moment, but it’s kind of giving me hope. Here’s what she wrote:

Nat,

Just had a dream about fish in an egg carton. I took it up to your old house door and was about to transfer it into a bigger fish tank. Hmmmm….fish=fertility. This is especially true for my dreams. I’m 6 for 6. I’m praying, sista!!!

I Googled a few dream dictionaries and looked up what fish symbolize, and the first dictionary I brought up did, in fact confirm that fish in a dream can be a sign of fertility, conception; pregnancy. I, of course do not believe that my cousin is some kind of weird pregnancy psychic but I also do believe that some people are very perceptive and sensitive, especially in their subconscious.

I do believe if we get pregnant this month, I’ll call my baby my little fishy :)

Origin Update

I’m currently on CD8, and have been on my Origin vitamins for a week. They are massive, gigantic horse pills, everyone. They smell funny, they’re hard to swallow, and they make me queasy even when I take them with food.

However, I’ve already noticed some signs of the beginnings of fertile CM. Yesterday it was a bit watery, so I’m taking that as a good sign. I have always been lacking in the CM department and I think that may be one of the reasons that we’re having a bit of difficulty conceiving. I’m going to start using my OPKs on CD10, which is Thursday.

I know I said that I was trying to be relaxed about trying and I am. I have to try and pinpoint my ovulation, because with these vitamins you’re only supposed to take them ’till 7DPO. 2 a day from CD1 ’till ovulation, then 1 a day from ovulation ’till 7DPO. Then you switch to your normal prenatals. I told DH that I was either going to use OPKs again or start temping. He vehemently balked at the temping, as he hates waking up in the mornings to beep… beep… beeeeeeeep….

I can’t say that I blame him.

Here’s hoping that I won’t be able to drink anything but water or juice this St. Patty’s Day! Woo!

Babies having babies

A friend of mine posted this story on their journal, and I am re-posting. The only thing that I can think to say, or ask rather, about this story is why?

13 Year Old Boy/15 Year Old Girl Become Parents

One year and 4 months of being ready for a baby, one miscarriage, and 8 cycles of actively trying to conceive versus one night of unprotected, uninformed sex.

Tell me: how is this fair?

WHOA.

So, here’s a fun little mathmatical equation for you.

Origin Vitamins + My Urine =

Class dismissed.

Finally Have An Answer

Well, I finally have an answer to this cycle.

AF showed up, full force this morning. I’m bloated, cramping, and oh yes, she is definitely here. I am, of course, disappointed that I didn’t get a surprise (and late) BFP, but at least now I know and we can move on to our next cycle.

I’m going to have to start temping again, because I need to know when exactly I ovulate. I’m taking these Origin vitamins that are supposed to be for good reproductive health (they’re not just prenatals, they have a LOT of stuff in them) but are not for pregnant or nursing women. I’m supposed to take 2 a day until ovulation, then just 1 a day until 7DPO, then switch to regular prenatals. So I need to know as accurately as I can when I ovulate so I know when to switch from two to one, and one to none.

Here’s hoping #8 will be it for us.

Cramping

Okay, so I’m starting to feel some actual cramps, finally.

At this point I’m almost 100% positive I’m not pregnant (I know that sometimes women cramp, spot, and don’t get BFPs ’till their period is a week or more late) so I’m just glad that this cycle is finally realizing that it’s time to end, and time for a new one to begin. I am, of course, disappointed but at least maybe now things will get rolling so we can just move on to the next cycle of trying.

Yet ANOTHER post

Yeah, I’m posting a lot.

Soooooo…….. AF is still not here. I’m now on CD 33. I haven’t had any more cramping, or spotting/tinging since this morning. Josh and I even DTD to try and “get things going” (hey, it usually does the trick)…… And nada. Not even a hint of color when I wipe.

I’m giving it ’till Tuesday morning. I bought some HPTs tonight, and I’m going to give AF ’till Tuesday morning to show up before I take one. I’m just so confused!