To My Girl

Nellie Rose,

Thank you, baby girl.

Thank you for staying with me, for being with me and letting me be your mommy. I know that a tomorrow together isn’t promised for us, so for right now in this very moment.. Thank you for being my daughter.

Thank you for the morning sickness, for the acne and for the aches and pains. Thank you for your little kicks, squirms, and rolls. Thank you for smiling at me during your ultrasound, yawning and for those little hiccups I felt last night.

I love you more than words can say. I know in my heart I will meet you “on the outside”. I know that I will hold you, kiss your sweet face, sing you to sleep and feed you. You and I are meant to be together, kiddo. I feel it in my bones.

But just in case someone somewhere has other plans, I just wanted to let you know that you are my world and I love you more than is humanly possible to describe.


Another PAL Heartbreak

I just read on my Pregnant After a Loss message board that one of my fellow PALs who was pregnant with twins after losing 6 other babies has lost her twins.

She was 14 weeks pregnant. She messaged me on Facebook whenever she found out, and kept the news quiet from the general public until about 12 weeks.

Why does this happen? Why does this happen to women over and over, women who are healthy and have hearts filled with love for the babies that their bodies just cannot carry? My heart is broken for her. I just… I don’t have the words.