Dear Nellie Rose

Dear baby Nellie,

I had a really horrible dream last night, little girl. I’m not going to go into details here, because I don’t care to relive it again but it involved us never getting to meet you alive. It was terrible and I woke up sobbing. I woke your daddy up from crying and he held me until I calmed down, rubbing my belly and assuring me you were fine. When he asked what the dream was about, I could barely even speak the words because they were so terrible. As if to reassure me, you squirmed and kicked a few times. “See?” daddy said, “She’s fine, baby. She’s fine.”
I am sure this will be just the first of many hysterical episodes I have in regards to you. I recently expressed fear and concern to some women I talk to online about losing you at this stage, and how I don’t know what I would do or how I’d function. Not after carrying you for so long, feeling you move and seeing your little face. They told me to try and keep faith that you’ll be okay, but to be prepared for a lifetime of similar worries. They said you have to take it one day, one step at a time… Many of them have babies who are 5-6 months old and still worry about them. They check to make sure they’re breathing when they sleep. I suppose this is what motherhood is all about, isn’t it baby girl?
We are getting so very close to meeting you. Daddy and I had a discussion about when we think you’ll get here. He says the 10th of January. I said it would be lovely for you to come on that day, because that is the day your great-grandpa Ralph and (late) great-grandma Nellie got married. I think it would be special for her namesake to be born on her wedding anniversary. I said I think you’ll come on the 15th of January. Mommy’s birthday is on the 9th, so we could very well share the same birthday, my sweet little girl.
Of course, you could surprise the hell out of both of us and make your appearance next week. But you won’t, will you? You will wait until you are full-term, which will be December 27th. You can come anytime after that and I can breathe easier knowing that you won’t have to spend time in the NICU.
I just wanted to say that I love you, Nellie Rose. That dream really shook me up but it was just a dream. I want you to know that I’ve loved every second of this pregnancy. Every kick, every squirm.. Every time I feel you it’s a reminder that I’m never, ever alone and that you are with me. I know that you will leave my body and become your own little entity. One day, you won’t want to cuddle with me or even hold my hand. There will come a time when you probably won’t be able to stand being around me (hello, teenagers!) but to me, you will always be this sweet little being that resided in my body for over half a year of my life. Nothing can change that, nothing ever will.
I love you, baby girl.
P.S. You have the hiccups right now. It’s such a sweet feeling, I have tears in my eyes because I’m so grateful to feel them.


I’ve seen a few other bloggers do this, so I figured I would be a big fat copycat and do it, too. I figured I have a few new followers, and some who have wondered a little bit about me so here’s your chance, readers to….. *cue gameshow music*

Yes, that’s right. ANYTHING. Ask me a question in the comments, and I will answer it! Unless, of course, it’s offensive or overly-embarrassing. But I promise, as long as you keep it relatively clean (I’m not a PRUDE, just.. You know. Trying to keep things friendly 😉 ) and somewhat nice, I will answer! So now, my dear readers… It’s up to you.


Thankful Thursday – Thank YOU!

This Thursday, I am thankful not only for this awesomely geeky guy helping me make my blog look more interesting, but I am thankful for…

You, my readers, and for everyone who voted for me in the Mom2Be blogger contest. I literally would not have won if not for the support from each and every person who reads this blog, and who voted for me as your favorite blogger. Blogging is something that I have done for a very, very long time over many platforms. My first blog was with LiveJournal; a place I still write from time to time. I’ve had my LiveJournal for nearly 9 years. I am not as active on it as I once was, but it was my very first internet journal. Since then I’ve used Xanga, MySpace blog, Blogger, I even dabbled in WordPress before deciding I liked it here better. Sometimes I blogged to be heard; sometimes I blogged just to “hear” myself think. I’ve really enjoyed blogging as a platform for my writing which is something I’ve loved to do since I was young.
I’m rambling, which is something I tend to do sometimes when I blog. The point of this Thankful Thursday is that I’m thankful for each and every one of my readers. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to get your glimpse into my daily life. Thank you for caring enough to keep coming back, and thank you for leaving your awesome comments. I never thought when I started this blog that it would get recognized for anything, and I’m in awe that my little piece of the ‘net has gotten even a little bit of praise. So thanks again, my readers, for your continued patronage to this space which I call “my blog!”

Wordless Wednesday – Part TWO

Yeah, so this Wordless Wednesday post isn’t so Wordless. But, I have to say THANK YOU. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU for ALL of your votes and support in the’s Mom2Be blogger contest, because……
So from the very bottom of my blogger’s heart….

Wordless Wednesday – My Final Plea


ANOTHER Blog Award for Yours Truly!

I’m just flabbergasted. Kate at Busted Plumbing likes me, she really likes me! She gave me my 2nd blog award, which is AMAZING. Thank you KATE!!!


List 10 things that make you happy, try to do at least one of them today, and tag 10 bloggers that brighten your day. For those 10 bloggers who get the award, you then link back to my blog and create your makes you happy list.


1. Feeling my little girl kick.
2. Singing with my chorus/quartet.
3. Hugging and snuggling with my husband.
4. Christmas music.
5. Napping.
7. Reading other peoples’ blogs.
8. Getting things in the mail.
9. Warm days (this one won’t happen for a while!)
10. Black/green/greek olives.


2. Future Mama @ Baby Makin(g) Machine
3. Christina @ Being Mrs Jones
4. Blair @ Heir to Blair
5. Mandi @ Life in Beta
10. Michelle @ Plus One

Thanks again to Kate at Busted Plumbing for my award! You rock, Kate!

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The Weekend: Baby Showers and LOTS of Shopping!

The weekend was awesome. The ladies from my chorus threw a baby shower on Saturday, and little girl made out like a bandit. The highlight of the gifts was our travel system, the Graco Quattro Travel System. We also got quite a bit in Babies R Us giftcards, and some in Target gift cards also. That night we had a Christmas party at my brother-in-law’s house with all of our friends, which we do annually.

On Sunday, it was a shopping day. We decided to go use our gift cards. We bought a baby monitor, a breathable bumper, a rug for her room, a sleep positioner, and a Boppy! WOO HOO! I didn’t get a cutesy slipcover for it because we would have run out of gift card, so I just got the plain white one and figured I’d get a pretty one later if I wanted to. After that, we packed up a TON of books we had and headed to McKay’s Used Book Store here in town and got about $60.00 in store credit. We spent about $30 of it and got some things to read. I bought a breastfeeding book by Dr. Sears and got the 1st two books in the Sookie Stackhouse series. I have to say, I’m hooked. I’ve already seen the first season of True Blood (the HBO show that is based on the Stackhouse novels) and I’m really digging the book so far.
Last night, I had the most amazing dream. It was about Nellie. I had a dream that I was in the house in which I grew up in Chicago, and Nellie came early. Right there in my living room. I was holding her and was so scared first, because she was small. And I’m not talking typical newborn baby small, I mean she was about the size of a baby bird, or something. Josh got on the phone with the doctor to see if we needed to bring her to the hospital. They got her cleaned up, and cut her cord and brought her back to me and she was still so tiny. I was terrified. Josh got off the phone with the doctor and said that since everything was fine with her, the doctor said there was no need to bring her in. I protested, stating how tiny she was and Josh said, “Honey, look at her. She’s perfect.”
I looked down at the baby in my arms and she had magically grown; and looked like a normal full-grown infant. Better than normal, actually, she was FAT. I mean I had a chunky, CHUNKY baby on my hands. Her legs had little rolls all over them and her belly was so round and plump. She was beautiful. She looked exactly like her daddy in the face, and had my dark hair. She was naked, and I immediately cradled her and began breastfeeding. I remember she tried to latch on improperly the first few attempts but then she finally got it right and nursed like a pro. It was the most serene, peaceful feeling I’ve ever had from a dream. I didn’t want to wake up, but my bladder had other plans for me and I lost the dream of my fat little baby girl.
So that, in a nutshell, was my weekend. Every day that passes is another day closer to meeting my little lady!!!

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35 Weeks – Baby Honeydew

Your baby, now as hefty as a honeydew melon at 5 1/4 pounds, doesn’t have much room to maneuver in your belly. (Length: more than 18 inches, head
to heel.)

Your baby doesn’t have much room to maneuver now that he’s over 18 inches long and tips the scales at 5 1/4 pounds (pick up a honeydew melon). Because it’s so snug in your womb, he isn’t likely to be doing somersaults anymore, but the number of times he kicks should remain about the same. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he’ll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.

How far along? 35 weeks 2 Days
Total weight gain/loss 29 pounds total as of last appointment
Maternity clothes? Ayup.
Stretch marks? Still some along the hip-meets-belly line.
Sleep Sucks!
Best moment this week Getting her stroller/car seat and realizing we have all the major things we need for her!
Movement Good!
Food cravings Vegetables, specifically veggie trays. Go figure.
Gender Girl!
Labor Signs Zero.
Belly Button in or out? Still an innie – but it’s getting flatter.
What I miss Sleeping through the night.
What I am looking forward to meeting my lady!
Weekly Wisdom Can’t think of anything right now.
Milestones Ummm… I don’t know :)
I know the belly pic is tiny. I accidentally resized it too small, and now I’m too lazy to go back and upload it and resize it all over again. Ah, well. Oh, also, I am headless because I looked awful and decided to spare my dear readers the horror that was my hair that morning.

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Weekend = My Bermuda Triangle of Blogging

My home computer sucks. I do most of my blogging/blog drafting on my lunch breaks at work. So, you’ll notice the weekends I am pretty quiet. I usually catch up on Mondays when I do my weekly baby updates but today I stayed home from work.

No, I wasn’t sick. No H1N1, no cough… This mama was simply exhausted. I got crappy sleep the night before, and I was just plain worn out. I decided to take a day to rest at home seeing as how I have only called out sick one time in the past 9 months. So this little mama did nothing today. Absolutely. Freaking. Nothing.

I napped on the couch, read some of the newest book I picked up (Dead Until Dark, AKA the first of the Stookie Stackhouse novels that inspired the HBO show True Blood), watched Ellen.. It was heavenly.

Anywho, I will catch up tomorrow. After an eventful weekend, I’m happy to report that we have basically everything we need for little miss Nellie Rose. I’ll also post my weekly baby update and belly pic tomorrow. But for now, I will leave you with this:

I only have a few days left in the Mom2Be contest. It ends Wednesday. I’m in the top three, and if I win I will get not only the honor of winning my first blogging contest ever but I will also receive a $50 Baby GAP giftcard. I’m asking you, my reader, to please click this link:
And vote for me, Natalie, as your favorite Mom2Be blogger.

Thank you for voting, and as always, thank you for reading. Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post!

P.S. If you happened to catch the TV show “The Sing Off”, and happened to pay attention to the group Maxx Factor…. Yeah, that’s what I do. That’s the way I roll, baby. BARBERSHOP FOR THE WIN!

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My Little Mystery

Nellie Rose,

Last night as I was waiting on clothes to be dry, I was on the computer browsing around. Your daddy was snoozing soundly in bed behind me, and you were rolling and moving. I glanced at the picture we have of you on the desktop before my windows loaded, and couldn’t help but smile. I looked down at my round belly and saw it moving. I watched you shift, roll, and move and wondered what you were up to. I found myself wondering what you were thinking, what you were doing… We saw you about a week ago in amazing clarity and as I sat quietly gazing down at my stomach I found myself in awe at the fact that you are still such a mystery to me. At any given moment, you could be smiling or yawning; sticking your tongue out like you did during our ultrasound or sleeping soundly. Do you play with your umbilical cord? Do you dream of me? Because I dream of you. I know that you have a sweet little nose (from your daddy) and a dimple in your chin, like me. I feel like I have somewhat of a better insight into your personality from watching you in 3d…. But you’re still such a mystery to me, little girl. What will your hair look like? Will it be dark and curly, like mine? Or will you inherit your daddy’s lighter hair? Are you going to have his beautiful blue eyes or my brown ones? Will you like music? Or movies? What sort of things will you enjoy doing?
You’ve been with me for the better part of half a year, and yet we’ve never met face to face. My heart is filled with so much love for a tiny little person who I only know by their movements, kicks, and brief glances over a digital screen. Who knew such love could exist? And you know what the crazy thing is, baby girl? I know that I haven’t felt anything yet. Not by a longshot. Because meeting you, holding you and watching you sleep is going to be a whole ‘nother experience. Watching you grow and raising you into an amazing young woman is going to be such a wonderful journey. I looked at myself in the mirror for a long time last night, running my hands over the curve of my belly and feeling you move in return. I wonder if these memories will be so vivid twenty years from now when you are grown. Time flies by so quickly.. How will I ever get enough of you?
You’re my little mystery. Soon you will be in my arms and I will be able to get to know you better. But for now, I will be content seeing you make my stomach move and dream about you.
Right now, as I type, you have the hiccups. You get them almost every single day. Some mommies think it’s annoying, but I absolutely love it.
I love you so much, Nellie Rose.

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